I sincerely urge my watchers to read this please. I've been meaning to write this for a while, I just couldn't find the right words I wanted to express this. Even now, I don't know what to say.
It's no secret that I haven't been posting much. In fact, last year was a really slow year for me. On a good month I'd post like 4 or 5 pictures. I used to think that it was because I was busy with school and I no longer had an art class so I was unable to draw everyday. Maybe that's how this all started, I'm not sure anymore.
The reality is I'm not drawing anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love to draw and I don't want to give up! However, I haven't been improving at all. In fact, I've been regressing in my skills. I keep flipping through older sketch books of mine and I'd cry- literally. I realized that I can no longer draw like that. I'm not as good as I used to be. It's truly frustrating.
I just don't any kind of satisfaction from drawing anymore. I don't want to be that kid who gave up on drawing or anything, but I just have nothing else. Don't think I'm doing this because I'm upset that I don't draw as well anymore. It's not about that. With my computer and tablet not working properly anymore and my lost interest, it makes it impossible for me to draw. I honestly don't know what to do....
Of course I'll still be on DeviantART! I love all you guys and I want to see the rest of you grow and improve in my place! I hope maybe one day I can pick up the pencil again, just not today. I'm sorry. If you have any questions please ask me!
Thank you all for reading!